I’m drowning and I’m not sure I can be saved this time….
6 months since the last family death. Tomorrow is my step father’s birthday. Death and birthdays seem to go hand in hand. And I’m over due for a funeral given the trend of people dying in my family every 4-6 months or so… I fear for what may come
Advanced terminal cancer. Terminal COPD. Need I sat more?
Feeling sad and lonely today. I hate days like this ….
I am irrationally irritated when people speak proper English. I find it down right pretentious when I ask a customer “how are you?” And they respond with “I am well thank you.” I know being annoyed by this shows my ignorant and stupid side, but there you have it. But hey, I warned you It was in irrational annoyance
I know this is childish and silly to be upset about but oh well. Back in December when it was my birthday I inquired as to when did we want to get together for cake for my birthday… mama always cooked me a nice meal and we had cake for my birthday …. This year I was told I’m too old for that, time to grow up and besides my boyfriend can throw me a party if I want…. Ok fine whatever. Today my mother texts me “we’re having a surprise party for your sister can you get the cake?” Mind you my sister is only 3 years younger than me…. I’m childish for merely wanting cake and she is getting a whole surprise party. … Yea I totally feel loved by my mom right now… Ok. Enough of that pity party….
Still happy. I like my non depressed cycles. Psssh who needs bipolar meds. (No offense to those who do take them)